Infertility blows. There is no getting around it, it just flat out stinks. You always hear that "everyone has their own issues that they are going through." well ours is one of those that isn't obvious, it's infertility. I have come to learn (at least for me) that the worst part of infertility is the emotional roller-coaster. We never knew what was going to work or if it was going to work, or when it was going to work. When IUI's finally worked for us we were thrilled.....then it didn't anymore. When we finally decided to do in vitro fertilization it was almost like a huge burden was lifted off of me. Obviously it is no guarantee that it will work, but now I feel like we have done/are doing everything in our power to have another child. At least now if it doesn't work we can move on with our lives knowing that. I'm not saying that the pain will be gone, because it surely won't. However; at least the roller-coaster will have ended.
For now we are at the mercy of God/our bodies genetics/doctors....well let's just say we have no control over what will happen. My brother told me a long time ago that the sooner I accepted the inevitability that we have no control the better off I would be. I think accepting that inevitability is something you just have to come to in your own time.
Hopefully in a few short months time we will be sharing good news with everyone. Perhaps it will take longer, or maybe not at all. But at least in the end we will know that we have done all that we could and that is a reassuring feeling.
