Life of JonAli

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Monday, November 16, 2015


Infertility blows. There is no getting around it, it just flat out stinks. You always hear that "everyone has their own issues that they are going through." well ours is one of those that isn't obvious, it's infertility. I have come to learn (at least for me) that the worst part of infertility is the emotional roller-coaster. We never knew what was going to work or if it was going to work, or when it was going to work. When IUI's finally worked for us we were thrilled.....then it didn't anymore. When we finally decided to do in vitro fertilization it was almost like a huge burden was lifted off of me. Obviously it is no guarantee that it will work, but now I feel like we have done/are doing everything in our power to have another child. At least now if it doesn't work we can move on with our lives knowing that. I'm not saying that the pain will be gone, because it surely won't. However; at least the roller-coaster will have ended.

For now we are at the mercy of God/our bodies genetics/doctors....well let's just say we have no control over what will happen. My brother told me a long time ago that the sooner I accepted the inevitability that we have no control the better off I would be. I think accepting that inevitability is something you just have to come to in your own time.

Hopefully in a few short months time we will be sharing good news with everyone. Perhaps it will take longer, or maybe not at all. But at least in the end we will know that we have done all that we could and that is a reassuring feeling.

Monday, October 26, 2015


There has been several times in my life I have been humbled. When I was younger and playing football I played the game as if I was the biggest strongest kid on the field (I wasn't but it worked). When I got to high school I still tried to play like that, but the fact that all of the other kids were far more physically talented than I was made me much less of a player than I was when I was younger. It was pretty humbling.

But in the last year or so I feel like I have been 'truly' humbled. Going through all of the infertility stuff that we have the past 6 years or so has been pretty humbling, but that wasn't the half of it. I feel like you are truly humbled when somebody does something for you that you cannot do for yourself. Being supported (financially and emotionally) by family and friends with IVF has not only humbled me, but it has brought me to my knees. When you are truly humbled and not as eloquent as me it is pretty much impossible to show exactly how much gratitude you are feeling. So I will just say, please know that I am more grateful than I know how to express.

I know that one day (hopefully in the distant future) we will all be humbled more than we knew was imaginable. I am grateful for those in this life who have helped me somewhat understand what it means to be humbled. You may have only somewhat prepared me for when that time comes, but you have done more than anyone else has or what I could do for myself.

Relient K lyric of the week - "If home is where the heart is, then my home is where you are."

Monday, October 12, 2015

Badger don't care

If I was sorted into a Hogwarts house I am sure it would be Hufflepuff. Actually pretty much every Jackson in my family would be including my ancestors. We are have a little bit of every house characteristic in us, but above all we value hard work and loyalty. We may not be the brightest bunch (why else would Jacksons live in Fremont Utah for decades unless they were being loyal) but dog gone it if you treat us fair we will be your loyal friend for life. I guess we are a little bit like dogs that way; although I do love the badger as a house crest, because badgers just don't care.

Myself, I have never been one who likes to talk much…..or at all. My father and grandfather are amazing story tellers and at least to some degree enjoy telling stories. Me, not so much. Rather than talking about my feelings I felt I better do something to express them so I figured I would do a little bit more “journal entries”. I hate writing because my penmanship is terrible so I figured that blogging would be the best way for me and my posterity to see what the heck I was thinking while I was in my 30 somethings and trying to figure out this whole being an adult thing.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

1st Blog of the Year

Have you ever noticed how blogs come in waves? We realized yesterday that I haven't done a single blog this year. And now I actually have things I can talk about! I'm not sure why the blog loses my interest over time, but it's not like I'm the only one who hasn't blogged in forever!

So starting from the begining of this year (actually end of last year). My wonderful parents decided to take a family vacation to Disneyland and it freakin rocked!
We spent our first night in Vegas at a cheap hotel and got to see the wonders of the Las Vegas Strip. We hadn't been there since our honeymoon so it was pretty fun to see everything.

Once we got to California I discovered that my parents probably got the cheap hotel in Vegas to appreciate how awesome our hotel room in California was. We stayed at the Farfield Marriot right across the street from Disneyland and I would highly recommend it to anyone looking for a moderately priced hotel near the park. It was really nice because some days we just walked back to our Hotel room for lunch and a little rest since it was so close.
Even with having a lot of little kids walking to the park and back from the hotel was very easy and convienient.

So I must say that my favorite part of Disneyland in December was "The Night Before Christmas" ride. I am a huge fan of the movie so I was pretty much grinning ear to ear while Ali was hiding her face most of the ride.
Actually the best part of Disneyland in December is that it rained everyday! That might sound like a bad thing, but it was awesome! Pretty much every line at the park was only a 20 minute wait or so. And some rides (Splash Mountain) we litteraly walked straight onto the ride. And it was still around 75 degrees.
I think our last trip Disneyland has probably spoiled me for life. I will now be dissapointed when I have to wait over an hour to ride anything.
Rain and all it was an awesome trip that we will remember for a lifetime. HUGE thanks to my Mom and Dad. They are the GREATEST! :)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Christmas Card

I thought that this would make a great Christmas Card picture, what do you think?

No? Well here are a couple of other options. Merry Christmas!

Friday, August 13, 2010

Miss Lady Kiara the Drama Queen Jackson

So since life was starting to get so comfortable and easy we decided we needed to thrown in a wrench somewhere. Shadow was doing great, he responds to all of his commands for the most part and was fully potty trained and we had a great schedule....then we got Miss Lady.
Miss Lady is a purebred Shih Tzu and is just under 8 weks old. Despite her small size Lady is fearless. She regularly jumps Shadow when his back his turned and doesn't quit until he has her pinned to the ground, after he releases her it starts all over again. Shadow has been extremely patient with her.

Just like young children, we have noticed some big differences between our boy and our girl. The biggest one happens to be their dramatics. I have never once heard shadow whine, I could be plucking his nose hairs and he wouldn't cry. Lady on the other hand is a whole new story. Her paws got particularly dirty so I gently held her close to me and got some luke-warm water in my palm and started cleaning her feet. You would have thought I was water-boarding her the way she was whimpering!

Despite her whining Lady has been a whole lot of fun for us. Shadow doesn't really like to cuddle up in bed. He doesn't even like being petted. Lady on the other hand can't get close enough to you, she wants to be constantly held and is great at giving affection.

Oh, and she will be a Broncos fan!